Happy New Years/ Thump...Not Slump

HAPPY NEW YEARS EVERYONE!!! I am soo happy it's a new year...but I didn't want to bring it in like this: single, broke and un-happy.. I broke up with my boyfriend...I don't want to keep writing about being sad, depressed, and all that!! This is suppose to be a happy blog, about living life...well an insite to my life and me!! Well, this is my life I guess, I just have bad luck with guys, and my life is always fiiled with drama...and I'm so prone to it that I'm numb to what happens to me everyday..I was ok..with the break-up cause I knew it was coming but..after awhile, well actually like 45 mins ago..I had a relapse..and I felt like a heroin addict who wants to get help and go to rehab but..when you havn't had your next "hit" after some hours you go into that withdrawl..and you sweat..vomit and all that! I wanted to call him...I needed to call him so that he could tell me where we stand but he ignored all my phone calls...I just wanted a simple "it's over"..Am I acting desperate?? Like, he is the only guy that I could ever have? Oh well..I don't know!!

Sex and the City: Philadelphia Chapter

Soo...my thanksgiving break, which was indeed needed was not so great:
1. On the way home friday on the turnpike, my tire blew out..wow right...it took triple A three hours to show up..and it was soo cold..I wasn't even at a emergency stop..I was on a freakin' shoulder!!!

2. Then,my week was just soo blah..blah. Me and My boyfriend are always going through *ish!! 'Mr. Cool' as I call him..is just a whole, solid mess!!!! We been together for like a yr and a half..we really have great chemistry and are like best friends, but he doesn't trust me..he always thinks I am lying, ok..so I have lied to him before but..I don't know..I just have a lying problem( which, I am working on) Well, to make a long story short, we broke up and I'm like ok...?

Anyways, this reminds me of that Isyss song "...and If I can't have youuu, I'll just be single for the rest of my life..cause you can't be replaced by nobody else..If I can't have you for myself"

ugh.ugh..ugh..to the freakin' 4th UGH!!!

I think I need to get myself together, I mean..I am a handful, right Kelis?.
Well, atleast NEYO can be my boyfriend, until the song goes off(which is my favorite song right now!!!) which never because it's on repeat..so I can drift off into"Shelisland"...